18th Feb '12: Jumping into the Tube with me.

Manic day at the skatepark!! :( ....

Anyways main purpose of this post was just sharing 3 new videos I put up last week for your viewing pleasure. Hope you enjoy. Longboarding and UK Downhill for the win!

Longboard Collision of 2011: FAIL!

- How not to Race a heat of 2011

- Motivational speaking in Longboarding of 2011 

All filmed in Wales, Ride the Dragon freeride and race in September 2011. Great times, very wet riding and racing, great pick of UK Longboard guys and girls on site!

By the way, I join tumblr... quite the experience! Good fun!

More into 2012! Enjoy the vids,

Thanks.

Feb 12th 2012: The new year flys by again!

February already! Crazy!

I've been reasonably busy continuing to work and do things for the YMCA and Legacy XS. Been relaxing lots and hanging out with friends all over the place. To keep up to date on things and to do SOMETHING with the video footage I'm accumulating, I'll be video blogging and updating things via Youtube as much as I can. Here's my Life Vlog 1, hope you enjoy; just a bit of fun.

Been remembering a lot of the lessons and principles from The way of the peaceful warrior, a novel by Dan Millman, which, a few years ago. The book and approaches really helped me open up a bit in my life approach and living in general. As I've explored various areas of life approaches and movements of faith over the years etc,I come close to falling into the thought of not really feeling like I've come very far but in essence, I feel I've come full circle, back to where I was and somewhere I felt worked, if that makes sense.

So I'm re-starting back to basics, and re-learning to enjoy the general process of learning rather than pushing too hard on finding a definitive answer as my perfectionist inner being says I should. - Continual search for truth needs an open-ness that I feel is often lacking by having a set stance on the matter of 'truth'. It puts a filter on things, which, although it makes sense of certain areas and experiences, often drains out colours/perspectives of reality which we may need to see to see things truthfully. ( I realise it is slightly paradoxical saying in effect 'my stance is no stance' as it immediately creates a stance, but Paradox is a law of the world so deal with it). I don't want to do that nor do I feel it is beneficial, so if I had to label myself to something I'd remain 'open'. Open to truth wherever and whatever that may be.

Truth should be agreed by many, make logical sense and yet work deeper than logic, a sense of right and true feeling in the 'heart' and/or self. Truth needs to speak through situations with an underlying knowledge.

 "To say that [either] that which is, is not or that which is not is, is a falsehood; and to say that that which is, is and that which is not is not, is true". - Aristotle

I've been working on taking whatever opportunities open up and it's led me to meet some great new people and especially after a trying year, things are looking a little more optimistic and full of potential, rather than just going through the motions and the same.

Things made sense previously in regards to faith an spirituality but I can't argue with my experience and feeling that something's been missing so I remain open to prospects and theories of reality which I will continue to test and develop my own theories of and on.

So I guess that's where this blog's going back to. Brain dumps and sharing stuff.

What else is happening?

Start of 2012:
- Looking for more work.
- Lots of boarding in the suprising dry.
- Parkour and movement.
- Strength training.
- London.

Near future:
- Brussels in April - UK Invasion freeride! - Newtons Shred Team
- May Hog Hill with www.newtons-shred.co.uk
- Work to be coming up.
- More Parkour.
- Building epic spaces. (details to follow).

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27th November '11

This is NOT about blurting all over to gain anything from anyone.


I believe sharing is useful, that's always been the purpose of this blog, to share, in hope that others can understand themselves through someone else's open thoughts and feelings.


Writing is one of the few ways I can actually express myself and get my thoughts out.


I don't know how to deal with this. It's always been the case, but I've had stuff to get on with which, perhaps, preoccupied my mind. Who really knows.


I've been finding recently, dad just pops into mind and sets me off. Mainly at night, when things wind down, bang, tears stream. Don't know where it comes from or how to avoid, but it hits.


The main feeling is regret.


Why wasn't I with him more when I could have been? Christmas is going to be weird. He was such a good, talented, skilled, inspiring, loved person. He'd been through so much. Why couldn't I accept how ill he really was? Did I really know? Such a waste of a beautifully creative mind.

The worst part, and it feels selfish for thinking it, but I've lost the one person that I feel understood me. I could be talking about anything, and things just trail off, because I didn't really need to say it because he understood. Like I pick a subject and he'd be like telepathically "Don't get me started boy". heh.


When I think about things, I have this one, main, lingering and consuming thought, that he'd have been there, at my side non-stop if roles were reversed. As much as I was, I should have done and been there more. I'm sorry.


All I can really do at the moment it try to be brutally honest in hope to make some sense of things.